Monday, September 12, 2011
14
14 has never seemed such a big number! because 14 weeks is still a really really long time to go D:
that being said, i have less than 100 working days left to ORD, if i forecast my offs and leaves. but well, the truth is i've still got 166 actual days to ORD! all according to whymustweserve.com.
i realise i have quite a lot of things i want to do before i devote the next 4 years to uni AND the rest of my life to working. and i'll have half a year to try and do them all!
before all that was a memory lane trip down hwachong. and that was on saturday, where we had pvsp and maf. i've always thought that the idea of pvsp is just simply brilliant! and i'm definitely going to play every year if i can make it, regardless whether there's frisbee or not.
this year, we got to play frisbee again! though moost of our girls went overseas, we managed to get jingyi and sarah to play. got second though, lost out to the seniors in the finals. though we were kinda disappointed we didnt win, i think we still enjoyed it pretty much nonetheless! :D $100 worth of capitaland vouchers plus a silver medal to boot! hehehe now my trophy/medals cabinet is rather crowded liao. i'm finding it hard to display all of them! :P the most important thing was to get back the feeling of playing with my batch again. and what tops it is playing on the same high sch main field we were so used to last time. hopefully we'll get to play again next year with more of our girls! this time, we'll be bringing the gold medal home. :D
MAF was great. got really really high singing all the old classics with the hcult people. went yelling away the songs with marcus. nearly lost my voice, but nowhere near daryl's true standard of losing his voice. LOL. the lyrics are just so well-written that i always look at the meaning of the song instead of listening to the tune. yes, i might not have chosen to go to hc out of my own free will, but i'm thankful for all the blessings in disguise that came my way ever since.
met my jc classmates as well. i'm genuinely sorry to ningxin for not turning up at class dinner before maf despite promising to do so. :/ maybe i really shouldn't have said yes when i knew that it was going to depend on circumstances. but i know organisers hate it when people reply "maybe". argh i know that's just another excuse as well. :/ still, i felt really awkward meeting them at the class bench. whether it was because i just pangseh-ed dinner with them or it's because i always find it hard to talk to them. there's just absolutely zero common topic i can talk to them about.
even when i talk to them, i hate how the convo goes. not that it's their fault, i think it's because i feel it's damn zuozuo. like everything is forced. but i think i'm the one who's making the forced convo. and i feel so disgusted with myself. and then finally when maf ended, they were talking about going out somewhere to hang out. a bit of me wanted to spend some time with them. but the bigger part of me didn't. part of me wanted to go say bye to them. but part of me knew it'd be another zuozuo convo about why i'm not joining them again. and so i ran off. without saying anything. D: it sucked. D:
idk.. it just seems so hard to talk properly to them even though i do want to. it's just.. sad. D:
that's partly why i hate orientation camps/groups so much. all the friendliness can just so easily turn out to be a false image. like how jc class orientation appeared to be so rosy. i really hope uni wont be a repeat of it. it'd be a lot a lot worse, considering i'm staying in hall with them, at least for a year.
okay it's getting late. should try and go to bed now even though i slept like 10+3 hours today already. goodnight world.
ranted @ 11:59 PMSi Jie-
